There seems to be so many easy ways to kill yourself. We’re creative, we can find ways.
Everyday we say “no,” we prove our strength. Bravery. For some, saying no is easier than others. But each and every day is a day you say yes instead of no, and that is inspirational.
If I don’t kill myself tonight it’ll be a miracle. Apparently no one is coming to watch me walk tomorrow because I’m not sure if I’m graduating. Apparently I’m getting kicked out to the street in two weeks. If I don’t kill myself First, I think one of them will. And guess who’ll feel at fault?! Can I start my life over?!
I’m a failure. Hear me roar.
Please know I’m not actually going to kill myself because I’m too afraid to. I hope I’m a better parent than mine are right now. Mostly, I néed someone to talk to. After they leave. Idk when that’ll be.
When I read the names of the musicians in Aaron’s band, I recognized all of the names from the “Next to Normal” band. Seeing them in person again, it was heartwarming.
After Aaron’s encore, the band played the same exact music they played after N2N curtain call. It was very unexpected at the moment, and just a real shock. I haven’t heard that since Toronto. I flashed back immediately to leaving the Booth waiting to exit the doors an hearing the band and when they would finish, I would applaud and thank them the same way I did the cast. I did the same thing last night, and since I was sitting right next to the stairs, I complimented/congratulated/thanked each one as they were getting packed up again. Even as everyone was leaving the venue, I tried. They all did a beautiful job, and I’ve seen a few of them play in other shows. I was very thankful to be kicked back in time, and it made me miss that show beyond words. I still do.
I’d like to go back to last night please. Or any time I was in the Booth.